I don’t like to write sad/serious things here just because I can’t take any blog seriously. But, I really need to talk about this. My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer a few years ago. She had the cancer removed and was in remission and everything was fine. Well, I got a call last night and it was her telling me that the cancer is back. I knew that that could happen, but I thought the chances were pretty much slim to none you know? I guess you just don’t know when it comes to cancer. I was just home for Thanksgiving…why didn’t she tell me then? I think it was because she knew that I would stay so she waited. I just can’t believe that she’s going to have to go through that again. All the doctors, the consultations, the therapy. I guess her only option is to remove the breast. How painful is that? Not pain, like ouch pain, but having to make that decision? To remove a part of your body? I want so badly to be with her, but when I told her I was coming home she said no. Now I don’t know if she said no just because she thinks it’s what she should say and she really wants me to be with her or if she really wants me to wait a few more weeks until I go home for Christmas. Even then, how am I going to be able to leave her again? I don’t know what to do. Not that there’s anything I can do except be there for her, but how can I do that if I’m on the other side of the damn country? What do I do?